Healing from my ex

DIY Well it’s coming into August my parents are off to Budapest on Thursday and are away for 2 months, they are biking up the Danube River all the way to Switzerland. While they are away I am doing up my son’s room, I have filled in all the holes with wall paste, and just have to sand them down and redo any of the holes that aren’t quite filled up, I am also re-wallpapering and fixing the gap in the floor between the carpet and the door ( my son has a deck off his room) the carpet had worn through so the carpet nails have come thru, I do have a mat over it at present but since I am also laying down carpet tiles ( foam backed for extra padding) I am going to fix the gap first before I get the carpet tiles. He wants a travel room as he is wanting to become a flight attendant, I have peel and stick wallpaper in white wood design, I bought an electric drill and screwdriver, I am adding a rod to the top of the sliding door for rod curtains, these are scenery curtains ( they have a pictu...

As of Friday the 31st May 2024 my lesions are in remission the virus I have in my blood that creates cancer is still there it's just not trying to kill me off or attacking my blood cells like it's been doing for the past 15yrs, yes for 15yrs I have been fighting this, I have lost my hair twice, had all the veins in my arms collapse, had lure placed in my thumbs and neck due to my veins collapsing, I have had to date 84 throat operations, I have lost all my teeth due to the radiation and chemotherapy I went thru, I have had experimental drugs, been on experimental trials, had cidoffider ( not sure how that is spelt) been on methotrexate ( which shot my immunity to zero), had avastin, and some other fun drugs that made me feel like death I take drugs to help me eat cos I have damaged my oesophagus from vomiting straight stomach acid, I still can't eat some days so I have protein shakes to cover those days, I have currently got scarring tissue which is super thick ...

Vernon Neil Bugden this was when he was 35 he's now 43/44.  We have all heard of monsters we grow up from a young age hearing of monsters and I don't mean cartoon ones I mean people who are nothing but monsters they start off just being in trouble with the law minor offenses, but graduate to serious offenses which aren't just harmful to the victims but to every person just like their victims these people have gone from being criminals to outright monsters. Today I am going to tell you a story this is about a boy named Vernon Neil Bugden who came from a split home, grew up in a small little country town went to the small wee country high school who at 16 started to get into trouble with the law, includes but not limited to; violence, driving offending, dishonesty, possession of an offensive weapon, making/copying/ supplying objectionable publications, contravention of protection order an non compliance with community based senteneces. He has violence against wome...

  Today I want to talk about suicide we all know someone or have been close to someone who has committed suicide, for me it was a personal tragedy, someone who not only I deeply loved but who was my safe space ( I don’t have a place that is my safe space I had a person ) this person knew all about my past all the crap I had been thru all the trials and tragedies I had experienced, this person knew me inside and out there wasn’t anything about me he didn’t know. Two years ago he took his own life there wasn’t actually any warning he normally has tells he does certain things before he contemplates taking his life, his depression was a big issue, along with him hating himself, but this time there were no tells it wasn’t like every other time this time he had made a plan he packaged all his things he left notes and letters and had this all sorted months before he took his life, the hardest part for me was knowing I had lost someone who meant a lot to me but also knowing I lost my saf...