2 years of freedom and learning

 

So it's been two years since my ex Damain and I split I call it 2 yrs of freedom and learning  cos I have learnt so much about how others play victim to get sympathy, 😑 I have also learnt that he is besides mentally unstable a pathological lier, when we broke up he told me took mental health very seriously cos as he put it,  his mother slit her throat ( she didn't) she died of a heart attack he took me to her grave site I read the inscription and did some research. I also find it weird that he says that he takes mental health seriously when I found out from the gossip bitch of browns bay that she and him laughed at my blog about me losing someone I cared about to suicide, WOW, both her and him need to take a good look at themselves if they find someone dying from suicide a joke, hope the never lose someone to suicide cos I am  sure they would be pretty pissed if they find out others were laughing about it 😑🤦‍♀️ ( Clearly Damian doesn't give a shit  about others mental health ).

After the school incident there was a year of him being a complete an utter idiot 🙄  stalking me, sending abusive messages and emails also I weird as fuck letters and items in the mailbox its kind of why I had a lawyer involved,( yeah I keep everything- it's going to go great on the podcast when it all gets read out) basically  just proving that he super mentally unstable and probably on something drugs or alcohol wise cos his behavior was just out the gate. Don't worry I made sure I was protected at all times.

I am pretty sure that is why my neighbour's put in extra security lights and cameras now when someone goes past the house my room lights up like it's daylight ( I have recently bought blackout curtains  for night time so it makes my room dark ) my neighbour across the road from me is a prison warden and an ex cop it's why I told her everything pays to know people like that. 

This year had been going great til this recent incident tho I have lost two members of our extended family we lost a cousin in February  she died of a ruptured aneurysm in her head she wasn't that much older than me she left behind 4 kids and her partner, and then yesterday was my uncle John's funeral he was 84.  

New events for the coming year I have decided to resign from all volunteer activities I do for the school and put my efforts and money into travelling, now that I am in remission I can do that. First stop will be Brisbane next year to see my longest and closest female best friend 😎, and then might jump over to Melbourne  as I have a best male friend there, do some site seeing, take loads of photos enjoy the small things in life.

I am also planning on travelling around nz again so much has changed and even tho the intercity bus is abit more expensive now it's still one of the best options for backpacking and going places, most places have an intercity bus stop, and you can buy tickets online. Also going to see my adoptive dad as he has now retired ( I grew up on a farm so I am a country kid)  he's getting on in age as well close to 83/84 my adoptive mum died over lockdown from a brain tumor from when she was diagnosed  to when she passed was 6 weeks I couldn't go to the funeral cos of Auckland being in lockdown. So I will  visit her grave and talk to her there.

I also revamped and redesigned my sons room rewallpapering it and I have carpet to lay down later this year, he also got new curtains, and I plan on redoing the deck out the front of his room ( yes his room maybe small but it comes with a large deck and that's awesome in summer especially if he has friends around) - Pluto our neighbour's cat loves the deck 😂, he comes over to hang out with my  Son and sleep on his bed in winter and the deck in summer.

I have almost finished my room new wallpaper and have carpeted half of the room, have got new curtains and a new bed and I have new drawers to come and a couple of other things to do but that is what summer holidays are for. I have designed my room to look like a tropical Hawaiian room, Hawaii was the one place I loved the most probably  cos it's warm all the time and the people are super nice and friendly. 😊

So I have had two years of freedom the reason I call it freedom is cos I don't feel trapped when I was with my ex he tried to give me rules to follow ( no I am not following  a bunch of fuckin weird rules) you date someone for who they are not so you can change them into someone else, I don't give rules out to people I date that's just weird, tho if you do chew with your mouth open I will be polite and ask you to close it, the sound of people chewing loudly does my head in I can't handle it at all, if you don't know how to close you mouth when you eat then you are basically unclassed. I grew up upper class, strict manners were taught, classes in etiquette and how to do things were taught this is something that was important back then, even tho I bunked alot of the time especially  about the skirts and heels and makeup, those things all came handy later in life to get me good jobs cos of the etiquette I had. The rest of the time I am pretty down to earth wear boots or easy shoes, simple clothing and no makeup, I had issues  with makeup when going thru my cancer treatments  I got allergies to alot of the makeup and it was costing me too much to buy new stuff every 3 months so I stopped wearing it and my skin is fine - thin lizzy is my extent of makeup skills 😂.

I have great skin care skills tho which have been helpful with my son going thru puberty and his eczema  flaring up apparently  that is normal for Filipino  kids my son is half Filipino half Italian ( I am Italian) his dad use to have eczema  flare ups as well. I have bought him a natural healing cream and a cream made with products from the sea as it's calming and healing on his skin. My son is no longer a small kid he's currently  just over 182cm tall it's super weird having to look up to my kid who still has a couple of years of growing to do 😂, weird thing is I am about 5 cm taller than his father and his half brother and I are the same height ( my sons dad has 3 kids to his ex wife 2 girls and a boy, his boy is a pilot  and the same height as me) my child also has large feet like size 11UK his dad's feet are size 8uk I am size 4-5uk  so where he got his height and foot size from I am not sure.😂😂😂

Well as the year is coming to an end and it's seems to have gone quite fast christmas is approaching ( guy fawkes is soon fireworks going on sale from today til the 5th November) So there will be fireworks being let off now til February  cos that's just how it is every year. 🤦‍♀️

Child got his passport and is heading off to Australia  to see his dad for a month I am hoping they now my child is older and with his dad living in Australia  they  can hopefully build a bond - they currently  have a very strained one due to the fact that his father while my son was growing up wasn't a very mature adult even tho he is 10 yrs older than me and would blame my son when things went wrong, and constantly accusing me of stuff that wasn't happening even as far as taking me to court to get custody - he lost I got full custody  he had to pay over $100,000 in court costs my kids lawyer was expensive as hell $485  an hour 😶,  she was court appointed for him. My lawyer was thru legal aid and he represented himself  🤦‍♀️. All in all after court he was diagnosed as having a narcissistic personality  disorder I have survived that for 16 yrs , so I figured I can survive the new narcissist ( Damian)   that is trying to ruin my life cos I won't bend for anyone. 

So hope you all have a safe and happy Christmas  will restart blogging again in January  I do have one more blog to put up this year as Giselle is currently doing a series on Monsters and I want to original Monster who changed my teenage  years and everyone in rural communities teenage years to be added to her podcast  so look for my new blog in the next couple of weeks it's very detailed and informative. ( yes I do alot of research  for my blogs) 

Remember life is too short to dwell on the problems - look forward and find your freedom 😎